but knowing that my friends now have started their own lifes sometimes just bugs me out. feel sad and jealous. im still here stuck here still a student. i bet im gonna regret what i just said now coz she said the time spent studying in U was the best time in her life. now she lives a dull and repetitive life everyday. work sleep eat work eat sleep. rinse and repeat.
on the flipside, she gets money. gets paid for her work.
what interested me though, from this chat session, although she's already started working and stuff, she still thinks and act like i do. so i guess we are all still childish at heart. maybe when u are 30 u really start to think like an actual adult. thinking about loans, house, family and stuff. hahah screw that i'll think about that laterr.
damn im so bored. i slept after jumaat prayers till 8 pm. skipped asar prayers. no one bothered to wake me up. sob sob. so now its payback time. gonna surf the internet and be online till morning.
i hate myself for the fact that you hate me and dont rate me anymore and that makes me hate myself even more when i hate the fact that i screw up all the time and never really realize it all the while hating my ugly gas guzzling dirty old car whilst being nonchalant about it and feeling useless and careless and i hate the fact that i fail time and time again to project the truth inside like and old lowdefinition projector which burnt its bulb long time ago and i am talking like crazy which sometimes is true in every sense in which sense and sensibility is not my virtue.
*PROJECTING STONE COLD GAZE*
im bat shit crazy rite now.
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