Finally i have made a decision
i can finally say that i will leave my computer and video gaming habits with assurance. i realized it a long time ago that this is something akin a waste of time, but kept plugging and alas the habit did not go away easily.
countless of hours wasted playing something on the screen which did not have any bearing on my future, did not help a lot in my life and almost derailed me sometimes ago.
it think it is the right time to let go. broaden my horizons, do something more interesting, etc etc. meet new interesting people. i plan to channel all my free time and interest towards arts, which is something i also like, but made it second priority in spending my free times in the past year or so.
imho, arts is way more rewarding and fulfilling, as of now, playing games gave me nothing in return, amounting to just wasted time and energy.
i realized this and finally made up my mind after seeing some of my friends becoming more and more lost.
they are just living for games and nothing else. gaming, eat, shit, sleep and repeat. and really little sleep at that. don't get me wrong, this was my habit also for the past few years. but if you yourself are doing it, and good advice comes your way, you become automatically oblivious to the true nature of the advice, and become defensive. now, seeing it happening to others, i can reflect it on myself and feels like it is high time to stop.
i miss the times when i would just tinker with photoshop and do random stuff during free times. at least it yielded something for me. gained knowledge and skills.
i wish my friends would come to realize what they are heading to. lets all do something much better and be wholesome. i deeply regret all those spent times wasted. at least it was fun. without rewards.
instant grativication is just not worthed enough. not for me at last i realized.
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