Bleurgh

i guess this is the only thing that i can do right now, dress up as well as i am able to...

holy shii i can't even describe the stress and tension i'm having to face everyday at my new workplace.
Everyday.

Everytime i get a new job, especially from the CD, i freak out. Everything has to be done at breakneck pace, every details are scrutinized,  and if i do something slow compared to other seasoned pros there, i get the "hishh.. too slow" sound.

Everyday i feel small. Ridiculed.

But fuck it, i will tough it up, and silence all those critics. Just give me some time!