Deadline

Finally somebody gave me a deadline! But in all honesty, it's quite absurd. I need to create about 15 posters before the 5th of March. Fuck. If it's just typo2 posters, i can manage. I guess it's actually doable, if you cut corners and do cincai2. But what the hell, i kinda love the challenge.

I just want to beat this deadline and be proud of myself once in a while.

I think sometimes, people tend to overlook a designer's job. They think it's like maths or science. Use some formulas and you get it.

It's the thought process that's so hard for me. I think this part takes longer than actually doing the artwork. The thinking and planning part. Scouring the net and books. Feeling despondent and helpless. Lost without a clue. Scribbling things that looks nice on paper, but is not on the pc screen. Trying to think from viewer's and audience's perspective / POV.

If you have ever been in a critic session, you must have encountered this scenario:

Person A talks and just sees the negatives, the bad, without ever giving constructive criticism.

Person B just keeps quiet thinking to himself.

Person C just spew what's inside his mind without thinking if that's even doable in the first place.

Out of the 3 person, A B C, only Person B is the one trained and experienced in design principles and the technical part (softwares, typography etc etc.) The two other person, they are just mumbling and spewing shit. Somewhere beneath those mumblings are viable points, but it's just covered under useless words.

You then feel angry inside. Dalam hati " Kalau pandai sgt, buat la sendiri. Ckap je sedap" . But you just keep quiet. Count to 10. Let the pent up anger subside. But during those 10 seconds, you just cannot receive anymore useful input. You are just damn angry / ashamed / irritated.

Then at the end, the critic session becomes 50% beneficial out of 100% of what it should be to you. Because the other 50% is just you feeling angry.

Hahaha. This happens a lot to me. But over the years, i think i've learnt to just endure it and keep my anger to a minimum. It's much more easier that way.

Takpelah. Dalam hati, ingatkan saja, ini semua pengalaman. Belajar saja. Kuatkan minda. Buat lebih baik. Blow their minds with your work later. Come back stronger.

Creativity is essentially a lonely art. An even lonelier struggle. To some a blessing. To others a curse. It is in reality the ability to reach inside yourself and drag forth from your very soul an idea.

Dorfsman, Lou